I remember thinking those who travelled for business were the real grown ups. They were the ones with jobs so important they had to be in several places. I remember this because this is what I have thought until yesterday. Today marks the second day in a row that I am “away on business”. It’s a strange thing to say. In my mind, I am still that high school student looking up to the rest of the world for guidance. Plus, I really don’t consider what I do as “work”. I was away yesterday for a script meeting and today I am in a different province to take photos. That’s not work. That’s just what I do. It’s a hobby. It’s fun. It’s what I did in school. But now I am getting paid for some of these things which, I suppose, is what qualifies it as work.
I want to make it clear that I am not trying to brag about the fact that I don’t consider my “job” to be “work”. It’s hard and countless amount of hours go into what I do. I am scared 95% of the time that I am going to deliver a project that the client won’t like. It’s not because it means that I might not get paid. It’s because my name is on it and the client trusted me with their project. What scares me is also what reassures me. The fact that I want to be proud of what I create proves to myself that I am doing this for the right reasons.
(I realize I am straying off topic but I have a point and it will all make sense… Hopefully)
So here I sit. Away on “business”. Getting ready to take photos. No idea if I will succeed or fail.
I suppose, as a business owner, I am a grown up now. I travel for business. I should feel important. Part of me does. There are a lot of challenges to owning a business. Some challenges are universal while others are specific to the individual. One of my challenges is to not only convince everyone else that I am a capable grown up now but to also convince myself.